cakap cakap : Life.

My dad's condition deteriorating. He has been in PPUM last few days. Liver function getting worse. Heart and lungs getting weaker. Medical team have exhausted all options. Palliative will take over today. Saya mohon sahabat2 doakan semoga segalanya dipermudahkan dan bapa saya tidak lagi rasa sakit atau sengsara. Sedekah kan Al-Fatihah untuk bapa saya Doakan Allah permudahkan perjalanannya dan terima dia dengan penuh keampunan dan kelembutan. He has put up a strong fight. May he go with ease and receive forgiveness.

I receive the above message about a dear classmate of mine from MCKK days, moments ago. My first thought is of his family undergoing this most harrowing and difficult of times. How are they are coping with the moment. How are they are comforting each other and how they themselves are each coping and hoping against hope, that somehow, their father will pull through.

It is always moments like this, that sharply pull into focus your own thoughts on your own mortality, your own life, and brings into focus what is important in life and what is not.

You pause for a moment and look at your own life...past and present, and ask yourself what will the future bring? And you do all this in a moment. 75 years of my life flashed before my eyes in a moment, with clarity. Happiness, love, sadness, love ones gone, disappointments, regrets all there....and you know that the sum of it all leaves you to be what you are today. For me, it is that confidence of a life well lived. No doubt about that. Not for a moment. And even as I had that thought, in a moment, the present brought me back to reality with a jolt!

A classmate and a dear friend is fighting for his life 6000 KMS away in KL and all I can do is hope that all will be well for him. Nothing else. But all things must pass. Tomorrow the Sun will rise in the East and sets in the West. Hussein, I told myself, be there at dawn when the day breaks, and may the last conscious thoughts you have before you fall asleep tonight be those of the ones that you love. That is really all that matters in life, kan? Amen.