"Till death do us part"

I have not been well these last two months. Chronic gout, hernia, and all the ills that we, who are 75 plus and almost 76 in a few months, must endure to carry on living. Physical pain, creaking joints, the necessity to pace ourselves in almost everything that we do, and hopefully, also to have the common sense to not do the things that we must not do!

But to find me still in the land of the living after seven and a half decades of life is amazing. Every day, in many ways, I celebrate life. Mostly by myself, but that is not a worry because I truly enjoy and prefer my own company to anyone else.

I expect that the time has come for me to start saying my goodbyes to the things that really matter to me....and really there is only my immediate family left: my son, daughter, and two grandchildren.... everything else does not really matter.

The last time I was by the graveside of my dear wife, I heard myself tell her that I will be with her in five years' time. Promised not with indifference to the things around me, but five years promised because I have begun to sense, feel and endure the physical aspect of age....and I realized that I have begun my journey away from life as I know it now.

These days, one thought has given me much comfort. I vaguely remembered the phrase "Till death do us part" during my time together with my dear wife. Yes, we promised each other that we will be together until death...and now that my dear wife has departed, I now await my death for our marriage to be over. Until then, we are still husband and wife. I am comforted that that realization will be with me at the last conscious moments in my life....may you all have that same thought in your last conscious moments of life.

P.S. I am still unwell, and I expect to blog only on my good days. Maaf.